Taking my power back!

We don't realize when we are investing so much in others, trying to control their lives and make things better, that we are giving our own power away.  I have finally learned recently that I need all of my power to make changes in my own life, to make the transformations that I have dreamed of, that reside in my heart.  When I feel powerless, when I can't control my environment, I get edgy, anxious and just out of sorts.  What I have finally realized is that I DO HAVE CONTROL!  I, and I alone, control  how I feel about things, how I see the world, how I react to others.  I control the choices I make.  No longer am I going to feel helpless and hopeless about certain situations, because I realize now that I do have choices, I can choose to be happy, no situation is forever, things do change, and one makes their own destiny!  For the last few months I have been reminding myself that "you either live your life or life lives you."  It is sinking in, now that I am not spending so much energy thinking of food, I have much more energy to give to creativity and my to do list is growing by leaps and bounds.  Things just keep occurring to me, things that I have not had my eyes open to see.  Life is looking good, spring is just around the corner and the daffodils have their blooms on.  I want to put my bloom on too!

I am learning self care, and it is not one moment too soon.  I have learned to honor and respect myself, and to take good care of this body, mind and soul.  I am eating healthy food, spending more time doing projects that make me feel good, and much less time trying to escape reality by watching mindless tv or other such activities.  I have learned to take time to do a "how are you doing today" check, and a "what are you feeling and needing" today check.  If I take care of my own needs, which are MY responsibility and no one else's, I will feel freer to enjoy family and friends without having unmet expectations.  I am responsible for my own happiness, and I fully intend to do my utmost to live up to my responsibility.  Bring on some comfort, joy and fun, universe!  I am ready!